~WE'VE MOVED~

Go to our new home! Come on followers...click the image and come on to the new home! I want to say thank you for sticking around and stalking...~ahem~ showing interest in what I have to say! There is more to come and to stay in the know...come on a go!

~We have got to do better~

You know, in this day and time we should try to do more, do better, work to uplift and protect our young children. This is why mentors are needed, this is why teachers are needed, this is why YOU are needed to help PROTECT our children. This could've been one of your relatives. For those that turn your back and say "It doesn't affect me..." Take a good look at your child or young adult relative, be it male or female, even take a good look in the mirror. It does.....affect you! US! Need a mentor or help? Ask for it!~Phatgurllove~

~Being Fullfigured~

New Site for you guys today! Go check out: Trianglefullfigured.com! Trianglefullfigure.com is designed to be a social site. Going to be doing some collaborations with Milton. Check him out on FB.

~PHATGURLLOVE RADIO DEBUT~UPDATE

Well needless to say I had a helluva hard time on last Wednesday setting up Phatgurllove Radio. Technical Difficulties out tha wahzoo and I was so disappointed. So with that being said...~~PHATGURLLOVE RADIO~~ DEBUT ON WEDNESDAY 9/30/09! I will be on this time! I promise! I have so much I want to talk about and hopefully you will be there to listen or participate in the chat room and I will shout ya'll out on the air. The same thing still applies: I will also provide you with great music and spoken word to keep you very well entertained. If want to recite your poetry or you just want to say hello, don't hesitate to call. The number is: (347) 855-8245! I look forward to hearing from you! Don't hesitate to send me an email also: Phatgurllove@gmail.com and let me know how you feel about the show!

Not Necessary

It just doesn't matter anymore. This life I'm carrying. The man that helped me make this mess

doesn't want a relationship; even though I thought we were getting married. So that's why I

gotta dip down to the clinic, you know take the scenic- route so I won't think about having any

doubts about what I'm gonna do. Mama gotta live too. Changing diapers and tying little shoes

just ain't my thang. But that thang it's what’s got me going here in the first place. Thinking about

that little face. Will he or she look like me or their raggedy ass daddy? Nope not gonna think

about it. I'm tired of being sick. Already throwing up, it's not even been 4 months yet. I wonder

what my momma would say. She had me anyway and look how I turned out, don't want another

mouth- to feed taking care of others needs. I got just enough for me. No more talk about that, I

don't feel like getting fat I'm trying to maintain my figure. Doing all of this just for some “ninja.”

I don't have time for late night feedings, and rocking this child to sleep I'm not down for that

either, every day of the week. But I do remember the times my mother held me and told me it

would be ok, I would enjoy those hugs and kisses then go right back outside and play. Did I feel a

flutter? I didn't feel nothing, that's just my imagination. I can't imagine making room for a

changing station. I need time for myself Im still young. I won’t have time to have fun. Do I want

a daughter or a son? I gotta go to work, gotta go to school. When am I gonna have time to do

what I wanna do when I got you? Naw'll unh-uh it ain't gone be me walking around talking

about my baby daddy. I gotta get this done. I hate to go that route it will be my 3rd one. I don't

know what to say I can't picture me walking around with a baby. Preventing me from dating and

having a good time. Just to sit at home and listen to them whine. Not me...it just ain't gone work

. Walking around here gotta miss work for dr's appointments and taking pre-natal vitamins. Not

getting hit on by so many fine men, because of the shape I’m in…naw'll uh-uh it ain't gone be

me...I’m not pushing a stroller up the street. Worrying about loose teeth, making sure their little

hair and clothes are neat....maybe one day when I'm sure. I’ll be more mature and will be able to

endure the pain of labor and be more stable and in a better relationship with a better man-who

will do all they can for us and so that we'll have enough, so our life wont be as rough. I know I

need to be tough. I just can't right now. I don't know how. I can't do it you see, I can't have a

baby.

Not right now it just ain't necessary.

~PHATGURLLOVE RADIO DEBUT~

www.blogtalkradio.com/phatgurllove

Debut of Phatgurllove Radio Tonight @ 11pm. Tonight's topic: Who is Phatgurllove and who loves Phatgurls? I will also provide you with great music and spoken word to keep you very well entertained. If want to recite your poetry or you just want to say hello, don't hesitate to call. The number is: (347) 855-8245! I look forward to hearing from you!

Got Poetry? Win $500.00***UPDATE***

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advance tickets @ $8 each....pay a non-refundable $10.00 registration

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What I've been waiting for.......

Ya'll will never believe who the new host is of BREATHE TO THINK IS?? It is me Phatgurllove, I, Moi!! I am so excited about it. I was offered the position and I graciously accepted it. I am ready for this. I feel like I am a great fit for this. This is a dream realized for me. I will be the Featured Artist on September 24th and I will also be co-hosting along side Black Diamond. (Another Artist) I am so thankful for all of these blessings that are just falling from the sky. It looks like I need to send some praises up real quick. I received my 3rd draft for my logo and I must say that it is awesome! I can't wait for you guys to see it. I plan on revealing it really soon. The first hosting event will occur on October 1st in our new location. It's a poetry contest going on to sign up and register please view the sign up form, complete it and email it back to me. The form is located here. My email address is phatgurllove@gmail.com. The Phatgurllove Radio Show will air Wednesday night at 11pm. I will post the call in numbers soon and hopefully you'll tune in to listen. I would like to say, you can achieve your goals, no matter how long it takes. Just make sure you make time for you and what you strive to do because life is too short and there really is a such thing as second chances, and thirds, and fourths...etc. I love you guys. ( Like Jesus...lol) So continue to stop by and leave comments if their are any or just say hello. I will provide more details on tomorrow about the poetry contest. To all of my new subscribers THANK YOU. To those that have decided to follow me...continue to come along for the ride. I can use the company. Wanna win $500?? Enter the contest.

~On The Air~

Phatgurllove Radio is coming soon! We will talk about all issues related to being Obese and Overweight. I will speak to BBW's and BHM's. We will discuss their experiences and how it has shaped their life. Dating, children, employment, and socialization are all affected when overweight. I will be playing the best of Old School, R&B, Hip-Hop, and Neo-soul radio. I am so excited about this. This has been a long time coming! There will also be an open mic session on a weeknight. (TBD) There will also be a Poem of the day related to the show topic. Sometimes there will be a co-host! I look forward to hearing from you. Please be ready to call in and share or chat with us! Below is some information that I found quite disturbing.....

FYI: Obesity by Race and Ethnicity

New Obesity Data Shows Blacks Have the Highest Rates of Obesity

Blacks had 51 percent higher prevalence of obesity, and Hispanics had 21 percent higher obesity prevalence compared with whites. (2006-2008)

Greater prevalences of obesity for blacks and whites were found in the South and Midwest than in the West and Northeast. Hispanics in the Northeast had lower obesity prevalence than Hispanics in the Midwest, South or West.

Retrieved from here...

We need to do something and fast! We have a generation of children out there that need us and we must set an example for them by being able to be healthy and eat right so we can grow old with our children. Lead by example! Want to get started early? Go here and view some nice simple and HEALTHY recipes. If you know of any other sites, please leave them in the comment section and I will be sure to provide you with my review of the site and give them a shout out when on the air! Thanks to any new subscribers and thank you to the ones that have been hanging on! Your walk with me is greatly appreciated!

2008 State Obesity Rates
State	%	State	%	State	%	State	%
Alabama	31.4	Illinois	26.4	Montana	23.9	Rhode Island	21.5
Alaska	26.1	Indiana	26.3	Nebraska	26.6	South Carolina	30.1
Arizona	24.8	Iowa	26.0	Nevada	25.0	South Dakota	27.5
Arkansas	28.7	Kansas	27.4	New Hampshire	24.0	Tennessee	30.6
California	23.7	Kentucky	29.8	New Jersey	22.9	Texas	28.3
Colorado	18.5	Louisiana	28.3	New Mexico	25.2	Utah	22.5
Connecticut	21.0	Maine	25.2	New York	24.4	Vermont	22.7
Delaware	27.0	Maryland	26.0	North Carolina	29.0	Virginia	25.0
Washington DC	21.8	Massachusetts	20.9	North Dakota	27.1	Washington	25.4
Florida	24.4	Michigan	28.9	Ohio	28.7	West Virginia	31.2
Georgia	27.3	Minnesota	24.3	Oklahoma	30.3	Wisconsin	25.4
Hawaii	22.6	Mississippi	32.8	Oregon	24.2	Wyoming	24.6
Idaho	24.5	Missouri	28.5	Pennsylvania	27.7

It's falling into place........

Ya'll just don't know how thankful I am! I have had some great news today. Remember when I was telling you about how I wanted to be a motivational speaker to children/young adults??? ~Waiting...~Yeah, that post, I spoke to a Counselor tonight that works for the YMCA and he informed me that he is always looking for someone to speak to his kids. (~insert inside scream here!) He asked me what I wanted to talk about. I informed him that I would talk to them about College prep, being that they are teens and in College Prep right now. I told him I would also talk to them about how to relieve stress..via creative writing. Also informing them to beware of stereotypes and being stereotypical. He told me that it sounded great and he would love to set up an appointment with me to set up a time and date! Assignment# One! Priceless! ~Keying up shouting music~


The second part is that I am being featured!!! I have been chosen by the Breathe to Think Owner about being a featured Poetess on September 24th! Check out the profile here! It's all coming together! I just want to say thank you for all of your continuous support! Thank you to my new subscribers for following me, again your presence is welcome! Check out my website at: Phatgurllove.webs.com and sign the guestbook!

Overcoming Obstacles

You know, there are alot of people that actually want to see you fail. They take pride in things not going your way. These people are known as haters. They are always negative whether it be direct or indirect. What you must remember is that these people have existed forever. Be careful who you choose to associate yourself with. Everyone isn't always your friend. These types of individuals can drain you emotionally and that can affect you physically. Take it from me, I know. As you move forward in your transition whether it be weight loss, a new career choice, or even a new hairdo, someone is going to talk about it and you. You must stay grounded and remain true to yourself. You are responsible for your success not anyone else. The choices you choose to make are your own and no one else has to live with your decisions but you. With that being said. I am still writing and I have a lot going on with PGL Productions. (Ya like that huh?) I am making myself an open vessel. I am open for all ideas and suggestions. Anything you don't like? Feel free to comment and I will let you know my honest opinion. Then I in turn will tell you what I think about yours.

Sound

That tickles. What? That sound. Your voice beats against my eardrum softly as you whisper in my ear. Causing a melody in my heart.

When I first heard your voice, I wondered of course if you were the one for me.

But the strength and confidence in your voice caused the inflection in my voice to change.

I went from where are you from to where I wanna be, when you spoke those soft, sensual words to me.

Teasing my earlobe with your tongue, girls just wanna have fun. I hear what you're saying, you're talking about laying up with me?

Hmph we'll see, you were sounding intelligent at first using those big words to beat softly against my eardrum...but you know what?

I whispered...you ain't getting none.

Originally Published on: Blackwomanlost.blogspot.com

Phatgurllove's Poem of the Day

Overcoming fear and anxiety

So, I have been sitting around here and peeping into others blogospheres seeing what's going on in everyone else's life. I have hit the place where fear and anxiety are starting to dance around in my little Ole head. "What if I never get to do another Spoken Word Performance?" "What if I really don't make it?" "What if I never succeed in what I'm trying to do?" In times like this, I used to run for food and stuff myself silly so that I would feel "better" about whatever it was that is bothering me. Now that is not an option, so I must consider what it is that I am afraid of. Let's say it together and loud so that everyone can hear you boys and girls.."F-A-I-L-U-R-E." That's right failure.

I must see this through. This is something that must take place and it's also something that I've been wanting to do for a long time. I have been working on about 5 pieces at once to add to the book and to perform. The only issue that I have been experiencing now is going to another event to perform. They are not on my schedule, which has also made me realize that there may be a need for a Friday, Saturday, and Sunday night Spoken Word Gathering that will allow you to release all weekend and be ready to start all over again on Monday. Phatgurllove Productions Inc, Phat Cipher, Phatgurllove Jones....hmmm I think I might like that.

I have signed up for a Blog talk Radio station. Im trying to figure out what I want to do with it. I know, but I want to have all my ducks in a row first. I want to incorporate Neo-soul, R&B, and Ol Skool with some Spoken word in between from a few local artist and some that call in. That's about it. No hot topics or current events, this would be strictly music and words...vice-versa. But back to my main concern.....I have struggled so long to be accepted at times it still follows me. I accept myself and that's all that matters. The words that I write and speak come from the heart and that's all that matters. If you can relate to me then we both share a common bond through these words. If you have never been there, then take a minute to back track and catch up to where I have arrived to thus far. I am going to accomplish my goals. I am not going to fight myself for this battle. So far, I've already won. ~Phatgurllove~

You know I had to incorporate the Ph..it wouldn't be Phatabulous without it! I am being featured ya'll! My first time being fe..I mean..pheatured!~smile~ Ms. Yvette Noel, founder of UdoU clothing line is going to "feature" one of my works on her blog. I am so glad that she found my work to be inspiring! Checkout her line it's HAWT!www.udouclothing.comHere is what she had to say:

"We don't know each other but I was drawn to your words. I am now in the process of working on my blog and I wanted to know if I could feature one of your written works on my blog."

How Phatabulous is that!? I just want to say thank you to all of my subscribers, followers, stalkers or whatever your self proclaimed title is~lol Thank you for taking the time to read my work! You are appreciated!

RHYME & REASON Spoken Word Poetry Documentary

Saturday Night~Metro Cafe and Lounge

SPOKEN WORD
Generated From Noolmusic.com


I am still high from Saturday night! It felt so good to be around like-minded individuals. I performed my two poems. One entitled "The Intruder" and the other entitled "Sometimes" The audience response and feedback was amazing. The energy was so unreal! I can't even begin to describe how it felt to share my work! I am so excited at the possibilities. I provided sample Cd's to some individuals that contained 5 of my poems, including the two that were performed. I would like for it to be more professional and add some effects to it. But it was recorded in raw form. I also passed out some cards that I made until mine are ready, informing others that I am a Motivational Speaker, Author and a Spoken Word Artist. I need to do a press release. But all in all I am so ready for the next event. I need to get more exposure. The others that performed on Saturday night were simply phenomenal! Tamika Nicole Performed...she was awesome! I will add more information on the other artist and I will also post pics from the event.

Can Reading Help Kids Lose Weight?

I saw this article and I immediately wanted to share it. I read alot as a child. Not sure if I ever lost any weight from it. I wonder if it will work now?? (lol)


Can Reading Help Kids Lose Weight?

The Renewal

Waking from a deep sleep feeling deprived not from the lack of sleep but from you. Your voice penetrating my thoughts as I remember why I loved you from the jump. Not realizing that I would now be reminiscing on what we had in the beginning and how now I want to relive that moment again. From the time we said hello, to the first time we held hands, to the first kiss. I want that now and again. A mutual agreement between us that was only seen by God and a multitude of individuals who not only believed in the blessed union, but they believed in us. What happened? Did we stop believing in each other, did we become entangled in finances, too engaged with our child, too focused on work, and not enough time to spend with each other? Loving and being loved. What happened? Falling in and out of love....just out....Coldness on the left side of the bed where you slept...my heart cried thinking of how I needed you to be with me...in me...just around me....

I'm thinking the same thing he doesn't know it...our minds intertwined as one...the way it should be forever joined. Not because we have a son, because we were meant to be...even apart we share one heart... our own, meant to be in one home....feeling alone...needing, craving, remembering. Was it that bad enough to leave? Tears on my sleeve... the right side of my bed cold, where he used to snore, where we made love galore...love don't live here anymore or does it? Wasn't it I that said I don't need it? Wasn't him that said forget it? I can't I remember, in December I saw you with another lover, not your mother, cousin, sister or friend. Some chick named Lynn. Unfaithful, debatable but true...You used me and I used you. I miss you now, my heart still in sync with yours. I'm on my way over we need to talk.


Getting up picking up my keys after praying, having that mental release, I pray for an answer. Opening the door there she stood....I prayed and God made it good. We were both misunderstood, we talked for hours about where we should be and how it was not her but me and how I was relieved to see her hear and I was glad to have her near and that I missed her. She leaned into me and said she missed me too, we even had time to send our son off to school so that we can be alone in our home to become one something we shoulda done before. We made love galore and we were restored.

Adding to my repertoire....

Motivational speaker maybe......hmmmmm??!! Something that has been on my mind for the last two days. It must be a part of the bigger picture. I am jotting down notes. Watch out now ya'll...Phatgurllove is expanding her skills and ready for anything! I've always wanted to mentor young kids. I believe with every fiber of my being that what I am working on right now, has something to do with that. I believe it will all work together. Also thinking about documentaries. It's so much brainstorming going on right now and I am so excited about it. This is a dream realized, everything that is happening right now and I am enjoying every minute of it.

The Transition

On this road to somewhere, where to I don't know. I must go. I can't stop moving. The changes within me are pushing me forward. Onward...continuously. This transition, changing moving with the time allotted for me to accomplish what I must complete in this time frame, this lifetime. I feel so free to be me while moving effortlessly through it. Through the pain, through the heartache, through the loss of loved ones, through the hard times, through the good times, through the weight gain, through weightloss and on to the breakthrough. Movement, transition, journey. A metamorphosis, transforming and adapting to myself. Realizing I gotta push through past the particles of my old life and be rebirthed into my new life. A new me, a happier me. Someone that has been transformed by taking the road less traveled and following my soul along the way.

Saturday Love

Today I went to the anniversary party of a friend of mine that I worked with at another company. It was her and her husbands 25th Anniversary. I was so happy for them. I'd remembered all of the conversations we had about her husband and how she was hoping for him to pass a certification test so that he could get into the career field of his choice. I watched them today. You can tell that 25 years grew on them and that they grew with it. I watched her family and how they all interacted with each other and I secretly hoped that I and Phatman's marriage will last that long. We've only been married for a short time, but I hope that things get to the place where we can like that. Just like a graceful ballet. He lifts me as I jump high and I rub his face and encourage and sing his praises.

The curves

Taking the time to unwind as you hug my curves with
every word from your sugar coated lips, caressing my
hips with your verbs massaging my mind with your
analytical, lyrical verses. Harmonic, melody, a
symphony in my ears a drumbeat in my heart, a deep
breath a contented sigh. A hand squeeze in the lower
part of my back, only to slide down and touch my
thickness. A sly smile touches his full lips and I
knowingly sense that he is wanting to dip in my pool
of knowledge. Turning to face him, I let him pull my
thoughts into his run on's and adding my commas
turning them into a complete sentence. No fragments
here, just soliloquies and vibrations of words dancing
off of the tip of my tongue into his ear, no sense of fear
here. No tears, just words, unheard while my mans
verbs hug my curves.....words, spoken softy while
driving slowly up the road of vowels and sounds,
broken English and slang, that southern twang, sweet as
iced tea. My curve-hugging vowel speaking love is
touching my soul with his words, unheard of by many,
just for me...and his hands are still trying to find the
beat of my curves meticulously, he knows the way all
he has to do is say the words.

Nervousness........

Ok, since I shared that I will be performing I have been a nervous wreck. I have been working on memorizing my poems so that I can recite them. I mean how good would Phatgurl look with a piece of paper or a book?? That's not a good look, maybe later but I know for my first time I want to have the audience focus on what I'm saying and not what I'm reading, notice the difference? Just MHO. I want to be known for knowing my ish..ya digg?? I am super excited about it in spite of feeling a case of the BG's coming on any minute! I am also working on developing myself as a Spoken Word Artist and Author. I have been putting my book together and editing. That has been fun so far. It's amazing looking back over my work at where I was mentally compared to where I am in my life now. You know what that means people? GROWTH! Yeah a Phatgurl done growed up! ~smile~ However, I'm still learning more and more. It's a process and an adventure...~snicker~ I had to throw that in there. So what's going out there in Cyberland? Anyone..hello....lo-lo-lo...is this thang on?? Well in any case, I'm here and I'm ready. Let's do what you're supposed to do. It's my calling and I'm answering it.

~Phatgurllove~

Finally........

Ya'll I am finally doing it! I am going to do my first Spoken Word event! I am so excited about it! It will be on August the 29th in Raleigh NC. I am working on memorizing my pieces. Just because I wrote them, doesn't mean I have them committed to memory. That is something I'm working on. I know which two pieces I am doing, but I'm not telling a soul...yep..not even you! ~smile~ In regards to my weightloss, I am down to 242.2 and in a size 16/18. Yep from a 24. This has not been an easy ride to say the least. I will be 11 weeks out tomorrow. Yep, almost 3 months! Boy that has went by fast. I am still eating 3-4oz per meal and working out. Speaking of working out, I purchased two brand new workout DVDs. I purchased Diva Get your Body Tight, by Lady of Essence. I worked out to it for the first time last night and I LOVED IT! It is definitely not your traditional workout DVD. You have fun and enjoy what you're doing. When I arrived home today, my other packaged had arrived from Flirty Girl Fitness, yes, the one with the stripper pole. ~A Phatgurl gotsta stay sexxi~ I can't wait to try their DVD either. I will keep you guys updated. But I will be posting more poetry here for your reading pleasure while still keeping you informed of what's going on in Phatgurl's World. Remember Eat to live and not Live to Eat. That's my new mantra!

I've dreamed that.....

I was wearing some red and black motorcycle gear. I've been saying I wanna learn how to ride a motorcycle for about 2 or 3 years now. I'm scared but I really wanna learn. One of my co-workers signed up for her motorcycle class the other day and I was like...dangit I wanna do it! She said it's only $110 in Johnston county and in Durham they are $165. I talked to Phatman about it and he says I can take the class. ~stunned into disbelief....~ But I do plan on learning and taking that class. I can see me looking really cute and loving the wind under me....~sigh~

Michael Jackson-RIP 1958-June 25, 2009

I can't believe it ya'll!! I am still in shock. when I heard the news yesterday, I was like somebody is playing with me. I walked into my son's daycare and demanded that they turn the news on to CNN immediately. They tip toed around it for so long, I just said..he must be. I became sad like I had lost yet another member of my family. I just want to say tell your loved ones that you love them as often as possible. You never know when they may be next to leave your side.

Update

Since the last time I spoke with ya'll, my mom passed away on April 26th @ 5:05am in the morning. We all were in the room with her when she took her last breath. As you all know today is Mother's Day. My First one without her. Pray for me.

Thank you Jesus!

Mom is breathing on her own and off the ventilator! Ya'll just don't know what those words did to me. I almost collapsed with grief. Yes, grief...see I've been holding it in all this time. I'm at work and unable to release with all of the pale people running up to me for attention..."Omg Phat..what wrong...???" I don't have time for that. I will wait until I'm home! But God is good and thank ya'll for the prayers!

I wanna go to Jamaica!

I have been wanting to go forever! My Phathubby..bless his heart. He has never been anywhere. I mean you can jump on 95 North or South and go just about anywhere, but you need to get on a plane or a boat to go here. I wanna go! ~she cried in childlike anguish~ LOL Trying to find a good deal to maybe go next year. Who knows...maybe by the end of this year! I'm hoping I can convince the Phatman to take the time out to research it for me. Do something new. I'm tired of going to the same places. Of course our hometown...I know right?! Which is about 10 minutes away. South Carolina, VA and that's about it. Can I at least go to NY or CA? I would even take one of those bus trips to Atlantic City being that I've never been. I feel like my new Phriend, Madame...my weight does play a factor in us traveling sometimes. I'm scared to fly even though I have been overseas to France and I have traveled since 9-11 on a plane. I haven't flown since 2002. As soon as I make my mind up to fly, another plane crashes. I dunno...hopefully by the end of the year we can go somewhere besides Myrtle Beach....lol. We're supposed to go to the Bahamas in October. On a cruise. I hope we do. I've always wanted to go there too.

Lawd keep my momma hurre!

This has been a rough coupla days ya'll. They were saying Phatgramma was not gonna make it. I tell ya'll I have been praying so much....I know I'm on somebodies channel 2 in the morning screamin.."Not now Lawd but Right Nan..." lol I tell ya. We have all been stressed. It has been something watching someone that is normally full of life be in a state of unresponsiveness. I will be so glad when she comes out of this. She is a strong woman. I know that she can do it. I haven't had any decent sleep in days. It's hard to sleep when you're having nightmares. Crazy dreams! Just keep my Phatmomma in prayer. How have you guys been doing? I hope all is well in Blogland for you. I am sitting here in the bed on a beautiful Saturday, not wanting to move at all! ~SIGH~ I will more than likely be going out later on this evening. I really don't want to, but I gotta do what I gotta do. Phatman needs to get some license. I tell ya. That would be good lovin for me. LOL Well, I will ttyl.

Phatgurllove

Hey Ya'll

Ok, so I've been MIA for a minute. It's hard to get this blog updated when there is so much going on around me. Mom having surgery, being diagnosed with Cancer. First African American President (Queue the A Milli Track...Obama, Obama, Obama, Obama...) ~Ahem~ Still loving my first baby. He is so big now guys. He's tryna crawl, he has 5 teeth, he is wearing 12-18 mth clothing annnnnd he is only 8 months old! I know....time flew didn't it. I have a new job! I LOVE IT! I'm not going anywhere! (Unless the spirit moves me..lol) I am finally working on my book. It will be available soon. I will keep you informed of my progress. I have decided to make 2009 my year of completing goals that I set out to accomplish years ok. OH we bought a house!! Yes, I said we. The Phatman and I are still together. Still weathering the storm. I am considering weight loss surgery. You heard me correctly. I mean ya'll just don't know. I should own stock in every little diet plan out there. I feel that this is the right choice for me and it's not the easy way out as some of you may think. I haven't made up my mind yet if I want to do RNY or the Lap Band. I am sending up prayers for my mom. She was diagnosed with lung cancer over the summer and she has a leaking heart valve. Pray for her. They are gonna get them both at once today. I love her and I want her to be healthy. We are all on our way in a little while. We gave Phatmomma a birthday party over the weekend and she really had a goodtime. We all did. Cant wait for my birthday. What are ya'll gonna get me...??? I'll let you think about that. lol I'll talk to you later and I will be updating more often. I have missed you guys!