Update

Since the last time I spoke with ya'll, my mom passed away on April 26th @ 5:05am in the morning. We all were in the room with her when she took her last breath. As you all know today is Mother's Day. My First one without her. Pray for me.

Thank you Jesus!

Mom is breathing on her own and off the ventilator! Ya'll just don't know what those words did to me. I almost collapsed with grief. Yes, grief...see I've been holding it in all this time. I'm at work and unable to release with all of the pale people running up to me for attention..."Omg Phat..what wrong...???" I don't have time for that. I will wait until I'm home! But God is good and thank ya'll for the prayers!

I wanna go to Jamaica!

I have been wanting to go forever! My Phathubby..bless his heart. He has never been anywhere. I mean you can jump on 95 North or South and go just about anywhere, but you need to get on a plane or a boat to go here. I wanna go! ~she cried in childlike anguish~ LOL Trying to find a good deal to maybe go next year. Who knows...maybe by the end of this year! I'm hoping I can convince the Phatman to take the time out to research it for me. Do something new. I'm tired of going to the same places. Of course our hometown...I know right?! Which is about 10 minutes away. South Carolina, VA and that's about it. Can I at least go to NY or CA? I would even take one of those bus trips to Atlantic City being that I've never been. I feel like my new Phriend, Madame...my weight does play a factor in us traveling sometimes. I'm scared to fly even though I have been overseas to France and I have traveled since 9-11 on a plane. I haven't flown since 2002. As soon as I make my mind up to fly, another plane crashes. I dunno...hopefully by the end of the year we can go somewhere besides Myrtle Beach....lol. We're supposed to go to the Bahamas in October. On a cruise. I hope we do. I've always wanted to go there too.

Lawd keep my momma hurre!

This has been a rough coupla days ya'll. They were saying Phatgramma was not gonna make it. I tell ya'll I have been praying so much....I know I'm on somebodies channel 2 in the morning screamin.."Not now Lawd but Right Nan..." lol I tell ya. We have all been stressed. It has been something watching someone that is normally full of life be in a state of unresponsiveness. I will be so glad when she comes out of this. She is a strong woman. I know that she can do it. I haven't had any decent sleep in days. It's hard to sleep when you're having nightmares. Crazy dreams! Just keep my Phatmomma in prayer. How have you guys been doing? I hope all is well in Blogland for you. I am sitting here in the bed on a beautiful Saturday, not wanting to move at all! ~SIGH~ I will more than likely be going out later on this evening. I really don't want to, but I gotta do what I gotta do. Phatman needs to get some license. I tell ya. That would be good lovin for me. LOL Well, I will ttyl.

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Hey Ya'll

Ok, so I've been MIA for a minute. It's hard to get this blog updated when there is so much going on around me. Mom having surgery, being diagnosed with Cancer. First African American President (Queue the A Milli Track...Obama, Obama, Obama, Obama...) ~Ahem~ Still loving my first baby. He is so big now guys. He's tryna crawl, he has 5 teeth, he is wearing 12-18 mth clothing annnnnd he is only 8 months old! I know....time flew didn't it. I have a new job! I LOVE IT! I'm not going anywhere! (Unless the spirit moves me..lol) I am finally working on my book. It will be available soon. I will keep you informed of my progress. I have decided to make 2009 my year of completing goals that I set out to accomplish years ok. OH we bought a house!! Yes, I said we. The Phatman and I are still together. Still weathering the storm. I am considering weight loss surgery. You heard me correctly. I mean ya'll just don't know. I should own stock in every little diet plan out there. I feel that this is the right choice for me and it's not the easy way out as some of you may think. I haven't made up my mind yet if I want to do RNY or the Lap Band. I am sending up prayers for my mom. She was diagnosed with lung cancer over the summer and she has a leaking heart valve. Pray for her. They are gonna get them both at once today. I love her and I want her to be healthy. We are all on our way in a little while. We gave Phatmomma a birthday party over the weekend and she really had a goodtime. We all did. Cant wait for my birthday. What are ya'll gonna get me...??? I'll let you think about that. lol I'll talk to you later and I will be updating more often. I have missed you guys!

Barack Obama Wins! Victory Speech 11/4/08 US President 1 of 3

I can't even describe how I felt. There were tears. I looked at my 5mth old son and I knew that he could be president. Realistically. I never thought in my 32 years of living that I would even see this day! I am ready for change and apparently so is everyone else.

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Ok, so I've been mia for a while. I've just been getting adjusted to being a new mom while fighting to save my marriage. I have to tell ya'll. It didn't look to good for a minute. I thought I was gonna hafta catch a charge. I don't know what it is. There are somethings that really irk me about Phatman. I'm not gonna put him out there like that but I think that we may be on the right path. We've only been married for 1 yr and 9 mths. (We've been together for almost 12 years!) Marriage is definently a job. I'm learning that....add a newborn and it's chaos. I think that Phatman was/is jealous of the baby. I was heated about it at first Until I learned that it is to be expected. So, how has everyone else been? Anything new? Can you believe that Phatbaby will be 4 months old on Saturday! Boy time flies. Well I just wanted to let you know that I'm still alive and YES, we're still together.

Black In America Trailer

CNN Black In America Trailer.

If you did not watch it, PLEASE DO! It is very important that WE look and see what this has to say about being black in America. It was very intriguing. I was dumbfounded by what was said and what I heard. Part 2 Black Men in America Airs tonight on CNN @ 9 est. Please check it out. I am posting the trailer as well.

Ok, that was my PSA of the day. Now as far as me and Phathubby...things are not better and in my opinion they are getting worse. Maybe it's just me. I dunno. I'm tired of trying to figure it out. Where are all of my married people? Please give me some advice...anything.... As far as Phatbaby...he is just that Phat...LOL. He now weighs 10lbs 15oz and he turned 2mths old on the 20th of this mth. That went by fast. He is such a good baby! I have now been employed for 1yr .....at the same place. ~Standing ovation pls~ Thank you! Now that is history in the making. Its sad to say that I have been here for a year. I'm looking for longevity...just not in the customer service field. For Godsake I have a degree, a BS in Management. I need something or someone to Manage for more money! ~sigh~ Can a sister get a career and not a job? Dang....Well, I guess that's enough for now. Sorry been so slow to post....once I can stop arguing with phathubby and bouncing phatbaby....I try to get in where I fit in and that's at work...LOL. I mean I do want longevity but it has to have its perks right? Or you just create your own perks. LOL Take care!