I've dreamed that.....

I was wearing some red and black motorcycle gear. I've been saying I wanna learn how to ride a motorcycle for about 2 or 3 years now. I'm scared but I really wanna learn. One of my co-workers signed up for her motorcycle class the other day and I was like...dangit I wanna do it! She said it's only $110 in Johnston county and in Durham they are $165. I talked to Phatman about it and he says I can take the class. ~stunned into disbelief....~ But I do plan on learning and taking that class. I can see me looking really cute and loving the wind under me....~sigh~

Michael Jackson-RIP 1958-June 25, 2009

I can't believe it ya'll!! I am still in shock. when I heard the news yesterday, I was like somebody is playing with me. I walked into my son's daycare and demanded that they turn the news on to CNN immediately. They tip toed around it for so long, I just said..he must be. I became sad like I had lost yet another member of my family. I just want to say tell your loved ones that you love them as often as possible. You never know when they may be next to leave your side.

Update

Since the last time I spoke with ya'll, my mom passed away on April 26th @ 5:05am in the morning. We all were in the room with her when she took her last breath. As you all know today is Mother's Day. My First one without her. Pray for me.

Thank you Jesus!

Mom is breathing on her own and off the ventilator! Ya'll just don't know what those words did to me. I almost collapsed with grief. Yes, grief...see I've been holding it in all this time. I'm at work and unable to release with all of the pale people running up to me for attention..."Omg Phat..what wrong...???" I don't have time for that. I will wait until I'm home! But God is good and thank ya'll for the prayers!

I wanna go to Jamaica!

I have been wanting to go forever! My Phathubby..bless his heart. He has never been anywhere. I mean you can jump on 95 North or South and go just about anywhere, but you need to get on a plane or a boat to go here. I wanna go! ~she cried in childlike anguish~ LOL Trying to find a good deal to maybe go next year. Who knows...maybe by the end of this year! I'm hoping I can convince the Phatman to take the time out to research it for me. Do something new. I'm tired of going to the same places. Of course our hometown...I know right?! Which is about 10 minutes away. South Carolina, VA and that's about it. Can I at least go to NY or CA? I would even take one of those bus trips to Atlantic City being that I've never been. I feel like my new Phriend, Madame...my weight does play a factor in us traveling sometimes. I'm scared to fly even though I have been overseas to France and I have traveled since 9-11 on a plane. I haven't flown since 2002. As soon as I make my mind up to fly, another plane crashes. I dunno...hopefully by the end of the year we can go somewhere besides Myrtle Beach....lol. We're supposed to go to the Bahamas in October. On a cruise. I hope we do. I've always wanted to go there too.

Lawd keep my momma hurre!

This has been a rough coupla days ya'll. They were saying Phatgramma was not gonna make it. I tell ya'll I have been praying so much....I know I'm on somebodies channel 2 in the morning screamin.."Not now Lawd but Right Nan..." lol I tell ya. We have all been stressed. It has been something watching someone that is normally full of life be in a state of unresponsiveness. I will be so glad when she comes out of this. She is a strong woman. I know that she can do it. I haven't had any decent sleep in days. It's hard to sleep when you're having nightmares. Crazy dreams! Just keep my Phatmomma in prayer. How have you guys been doing? I hope all is well in Blogland for you. I am sitting here in the bed on a beautiful Saturday, not wanting to move at all! ~SIGH~ I will more than likely be going out later on this evening. I really don't want to, but I gotta do what I gotta do. Phatman needs to get some license. I tell ya. That would be good lovin for me. LOL Well, I will ttyl.

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Hey Ya'll

Ok, so I've been MIA for a minute. It's hard to get this blog updated when there is so much going on around me. Mom having surgery, being diagnosed with Cancer. First African American President (Queue the A Milli Track...Obama, Obama, Obama, Obama...) ~Ahem~ Still loving my first baby. He is so big now guys. He's tryna crawl, he has 5 teeth, he is wearing 12-18 mth clothing annnnnd he is only 8 months old! I know....time flew didn't it. I have a new job! I LOVE IT! I'm not going anywhere! (Unless the spirit moves me..lol) I am finally working on my book. It will be available soon. I will keep you informed of my progress. I have decided to make 2009 my year of completing goals that I set out to accomplish years ok. OH we bought a house!! Yes, I said we. The Phatman and I are still together. Still weathering the storm. I am considering weight loss surgery. You heard me correctly. I mean ya'll just don't know. I should own stock in every little diet plan out there. I feel that this is the right choice for me and it's not the easy way out as some of you may think. I haven't made up my mind yet if I want to do RNY or the Lap Band. I am sending up prayers for my mom. She was diagnosed with lung cancer over the summer and she has a leaking heart valve. Pray for her. They are gonna get them both at once today. I love her and I want her to be healthy. We are all on our way in a little while. We gave Phatmomma a birthday party over the weekend and she really had a goodtime. We all did. Cant wait for my birthday. What are ya'll gonna get me...??? I'll let you think about that. lol I'll talk to you later and I will be updating more often. I have missed you guys!

Barack Obama Wins! Victory Speech 11/4/08 US President 1 of 3

I can't even describe how I felt. There were tears. I looked at my 5mth old son and I knew that he could be president. Realistically. I never thought in my 32 years of living that I would even see this day! I am ready for change and apparently so is everyone else.

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I'm back....

Ok, so I've been mia for a while. I've just been getting adjusted to being a new mom while fighting to save my marriage. I have to tell ya'll. It didn't look to good for a minute. I thought I was gonna hafta catch a charge. I don't know what it is. There are somethings that really irk me about Phatman. I'm not gonna put him out there like that but I think that we may be on the right path. We've only been married for 1 yr and 9 mths. (We've been together for almost 12 years!) Marriage is definently a job. I'm learning that....add a newborn and it's chaos. I think that Phatman was/is jealous of the baby. I was heated about it at first Until I learned that it is to be expected. So, how has everyone else been? Anything new? Can you believe that Phatbaby will be 4 months old on Saturday! Boy time flies. Well I just wanted to let you know that I'm still alive and YES, we're still together.